
I know this is a long shot, and I am not trying to beg or tell you sob stories to gain sympathy. I have come to your site as a last resort. Desperation calls for desperate measures I suppose. Basically, to sum it all up. I am a young and single mother of 22, going to college full time. The only family I have is my father. Lost my mother at 17 due to a rare strand of breast cancer that at the time less than 2% of women contracted. My mother was a scholar and my idol. It is very difficult not having her here to turn to for reassurance. She was single for many years, and did not have anything to leave me besides a gold bangle bracelet. She was never a materialistic person. Neither am I, though I would like to have a nest egg of sort to leave my son in any case. Though, I have my father I also am stuck with my stepmother. Who, well, to be quite honest, i'm not so sure she has my father nor my best interest at heart. Do to this marriage my dad has gone in to major debt trying to please this person and her impossible expectations. She, I have come to understand is a very material driven individual person and it has gotten them nowhere but in debt and on a down spiriling tunnel of depression. I am left to deal with such decisions and the brunt of it all for as of now I can not afford to live on my own. Due to not having insurance, and being un able to afford it I have become enamored in medical bills that have ruined my credit. My father has Chronic Emphasema and continues to smoke due to the stress of the house, bills, and you know, those impossible expectations set forth by the Russian of the household. My father is very depressed and has mentioned he would rather not be here. In short, he's about had all he can take, I can see it in his eyes, his body language his attitude towards life at times, and though he loves me and my son (his grandson) the weight of all there is on his shoulders is drowning him. I have a fear that god forbid something were to happen, healthwise to my father or hypothetically speaking, my stepmother clears everything out one day and flees the country (which she has mentioned nonchalantly on many occasions) I again, will be left with nothing and life will become even more cruical than it already is. However, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? Guess i'd like to believe it so. Well, two years ago, I lent my father 10,000 dollars (my savings account which I had been saving for my son, myself, college, emergencies etc) well, I lent him this, because he told me they were on the brink of loosing the house and when he refinanced the house he would pay me back. Out of the kindness of my heart (which I don't regret , because all things happen for a reason) I lent him this money. Well, they were denied the refinancing of the house for some reasons and the money was exhausted. So, again I am left having to work work work to reign in my saving account again so that I will have some some fall -back -on money. It is very difficult to save since I am paying my own bills, helping pay bills at the house and have only enough time to work part time since I am attending college more than full time. I have many goals and aspirations. Too many to name. I will tell you in short, a few of the things I would like to accomplish in the "near" future. I would like to write a book, of my short stories/poems along with my mothers. She always did want to write a book. I have just so much to say and so did she. She reminds me of Poe. Dark yet enlightening. I would also like to look into a non profit organization dealing with breast cancer. Before My mother passed she wrote a journal that we fumbled upon a week after her passing. It said if she would have won the lottery she would have created a "real" foundation for people stricken with breast cancer and their families. I remember so vivid the look on my mothers face at the wig the susan komen foundation allowed for her. It was used and the hair was nearly matted. My mother then began to embrace her bald head that night and had a new outlook and approach on everything after that it seemed. I mean I just don't see how a foundation getting so much response and recourse every year can not afford to help out with the small things. I wonder wonder wonder where that money goes. Do you think the big CEO's of that foundation ever have to worry about their lights getting shut off because they cannot work due to an illness and have no money to afford it? Probably not. Any ways, I'm sitting at starbucks, taking a chance at this and my eyes are tearing. I will leave you with this, I wish there were more people like you and those affiliated with this site who have money. You know, we would be a world better off. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and for your consideration. If there is a god out there, well I hope that he blesses you with all you hope for. You deserve it. Thank you Robin Hood 702. I love the whole Robin Hood theme. Makes a whole lot of sense. (smiling through the tears) Thank you again. In video. My son and my father. The two people who mean the most to me in the entire world.